Broken heart, one more time

Wow it's been quite awhile since i posted on here. i doubt anyone will actually read this anyways, i guess it is just more for my benefit.
well I've just been thinking allot. thinking about God, family, relationships, love, friends, and much much more. i am convinced that our teenage years are the most emotional years of our entire lives. i mean it's crazy how we can go from one extreme to the other in a matter of minutes, even seconds. i don't understand but i wish i did. wouldn't it just make it so much easier if everything was just spelled out for us? if every decision we made was already mapped out for us beforehand and all we had to do it follow the "yellow brick road" of our lives? *sigh* but then i started thinking. we do have a yellow brick road for our lives. it's God and the bible. it tells us what to do in virtually every single situation, and yet we still think that wandering off the road to the dark woods looks like more fun. granted it may bring you some excitement, but it's only a matter of time before you get bitten by something or you get terribly lost and can't find the sun. why can't we just stay on the road? why is it so hard for us? because we're human. we are so consumed with what we want. we want happiness, we want to feel good, we want love, and we want it NOW!! why can't we just be patient?
take relationships for example. what's the point? i mean how many of these silly fickle high school relationships are going to last?? i know everyone always says "well we're different" "we really love each other" "oh that would never happen to us, we are to perfect for each other" bull crap. you're teenagers for goodness sakes. sure you can look at someone and say "hey, i like them. i can see them being a person i would want to seriously consider marrying one day" but love at 15? i just don't think it works like that. everyone knows that hormones are raging right now. everyone can feel them. we all know they are there and we all want to act on them. it's just human nature. it feels great. we love having someone hold us tight, hold our hand, tell us we're beautiful, tell us we're the only one for them. that we're perfect in their eyes. but what is the end result most of the time? broken hearts, broken friendships, sad teenagers, and a skewed view of what a godly relationship is supposed to be like.
example: the other day i was working open gym and there were about 5 or 6 middle school kids there. they were like between 11-14. there were 2 or 3 girls and 3 boys. i asked one of the girls about the boys and she said she had a crush on all three of them. i then talked to the boys and the 12 year old was trying to get up the guts to go ask one of the other girls out. this kid is 12, mind you. and when i asked him about previous girlfriends he proceeded to tell me that he had already "gone out with" like a third of the girls in his class. am i the only one who thinks that is crazy? the kid is 12! and when i asked him about the girl he was about to ask out he said "oh she's like 12 and she's done like EVERYTHING with guys." "like everything everything??" i said. he knew exactly what i meant. "yeah. everything. like literally" "like she actually chose to do everything" "oh yeah" WHAT THE HECK?!?!?! the girl is 12 years old and she's already having sex! that is one of the grossest and saddest thing i have ever heard. when i asked one of my co-workers about it it didn't even surprise him. he was just like "oh ya. her brother's pretty wild so she prolly learned from him" are you not hearing me??? does it not bother you that this is happening?
what is going on here? what happened to weddings. love. true love. the word love has been so contorted that not many can even embrace it's true meaning anymore. that is not okay in my opinion. this is a problem. and i am just as guilty as anyone else. i am a stupid hormonally driven red blooded teenage girl just like everyone else. I'm no different. the question is: what can we do about it? how can we change this? is it even possible to change it. i mess up in this area so many times. i tell myself that "oh this must be love. he just seems so perfect. he actually likes me, that must mean he's the one for me. oh he thinks I'm pretty, i think I'm gonna fall in love with him now" it's so silly. i know i am just your typical teenage girl. we all think this way. but is that okay? the thoughts: of course. God made us to be hopeless romantics. to "oo" and "ah" with our girl friends about the boy that called her beautiful. the guy we think has a great personality. those thoughts are just fine. it's the actions that get in the way. when you start acting on these feelings you tend to get a bit blind. they always say "Love is blind" well i say that anybody with a member of the opposite sex runs the risk of being blind, whether it's love or not. it is so easy to act on these hormonal, god given feelings, but we need to step back and examine ourselves before we do anything else. we need to ask ourselves "is this what God would have me do. would he approve of my current situation. would he approve of this guy that is sitting beside me with my hand in his?" these are the questions we need to ask ourselves every time we act on our feelings. it is SO easy to mess up when you feel loved. you are willing to do just about anything in order to keep that love. but we need to think long term. what happens when that love goes away. when that guy finds someone prettier. when that girl gets bored with you? when he tries to go further than you had originally planned? what will happen to your heart when that love is torn from it? save your heart, guys. save it for the one that God has picked for you. don't give it away to whoever happens to make you feel happy, loved and accepted. if you do that then by the time you meet your MR. perfect, you won't have any heart left to give him. the things that once gave you goosebumps don't effect you anymore because you have done them so many times. give him everything. give her your whole heart. love the way God originally intended us to love, not the way our world declares as the perfect road to happiness.